C: Insomnia

without_sleep_or_insomnia_305485The other night I had insomnia.  It's been a while since I really had insomnia. Well, I guess, not all that long in the broad scheme of things. At the beginning of my marital problems three years ago I would often go on three hours of sleep a night.   Let me tell you, that’s not good.

That is highly uncharacteristic for me, I was always the kid who required the full eight hours. I was, throughout my life, early to bed and very early to rise.  (Unlike V, who was mostly the opposite—a night owl)   It is still common to find me in bed before 9 p.m and up before 5 a.m.  Falling asleep is easy—it’s the staying asleep that is sometimes difficult.

My sleep patterns have become very odd over the past year or so.  Most nights I have a pretty good night’s sleep.  Chili usually wakes me to go out (wolf dog that he thinks he is) around 2 ish, but normally I cruise by the bathroom and go right back to sleep.  Some nights, well, I wake up inspired, smack in the middle of the night.

One of the pluses of single life (yes, I’m finding that there are many) is that one does not have to be considerate of another in the sleep pattern thing.  Consequently, I sometimes wake at 1:30 a.m. and come to the computer and jot down thoughts on a case that my brain has apparently been working on as I slumbered.  Normally, I go right back to bed and don’t suffer a bit for this interruption.

And then there is  blogging.  Some posts are at least started by me in the middle of the night.  This particular post was largely written the other night, as I felt engulfed in a full-fledged case of insomnia.  I awakened at 11:45 p.m. and, notwithstanding my best efforts, was still wrestling with the situation at 2:00 a.m.

The three worst things about real insomnia (as opposed to those shorter interruptions), in my opinion, are:

  1. Worrying about going back to sleep, finally, only an hour and a half before having to get up and go to work—you know, just as you are deeply in that precious sleep? 
  2. Boredom; sheer boredom.  Do you know how boring the middle of  the night is?  Do you know how many amazingly-daffy prodcricut-expression-machineucts are offered for sale then on television and how alluring they look to the sleep-deprived?   People who are up at 2 a.m. watching are highly-susceptible to purchasing, being in a weakened condition.  I actually bought a Cricut Expression machine that way (you know, a die-cutting sort of thing that I thought, in my craziness, that I just had to have?), and I don’t even scrapbook!  It’s a neat machine, but I have n.o…e.a.r.t.h.l.y….u.s.e for it.  It was expensive. It now resides with my sister and her daughters who do, indeed, use it to do their scrapbooks.  New Rule: No purchases when I have just come out of the bed…Need to wait for the clarity of daylight…
  3. I tend to eat when I’m up—probably connected with that boredom thing.

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Truth be told, I don’t mind the “inspired” wakings, just  long as  they aren’t too long, I can accomplish something at my computer, and I go right back to sleep.  But the insomnia thing I just cannot handle for long.

Now, I want to know if middle-of-the-night composing is characteristic of bloggers.  I just betcha that there are others out there who get up in the night and at least start posting…c’mon.  ‘Fess up for me—make me feel somewhat normal.  C

Comments

Ayak said…
I am an insomniac and I once did a blog post called the Insomniacs Checklist. Things I do when I can't sleep...oh the usual stuff, surfing the net, blogging, watching TV, do the ironing. But something I often find myself doing is moving furniture around...after which I'm so exhausted I'm usually ready for sleep.
happyone said…
I am a good sleeper. On those rare occasions that I can't get back to sleep I usually just lay there and try to think boring thoughts. Before long I fall back to sleep. I go to bed around 11:30 and get up a little after 6.
Vee said…
No, no middle of the night composing at all. I have lost some of my best ideas by following this practice of mine. Have you considered taking some melatonin? It works so very well for me. Sometimes blinking as slowly as possible ten times will work. By the time I get to the fourth blink, I do not want to open my eyes.
Kat_RN said…
I sort of do that, when I can't sleep, sometimes I blog in my head. I come up with the most brilliant postings, Nobel prize type stuff. But, you know, somehow or other when I go to type it in the next day, it just isn't as good. I do enjoy reading your posts so there is an up side to the insomnia.
Sleep well tonight,
Kat
kath001 said…
I stay up and post way too late way too often, but don't think I've ever started a post upon waking.

I have however had to institute the no-tv-or-online-purchases-between-midnight-and-7am rule. That was after I ordered a king-size bed and requested delivery at my office! :)
Zuzana said…
I too suffer from the same problems. And I too used to be like you, needing at least 10 hours sleep and i slept like a log.
These days I do fall asleep, but at best my sleep is restless, it is as if I am aware of everything around me. Very few times do I get a good night sleep. And I often wake up about 2h before I have to get up anyway which makes it impossible to fall asleep again.
I think it has all something to do with my subconscious, that is working overtime, trying to solve my problems. Or perhaps I have always had problems, but the older I get the more I worry about them.;)
Wishing you a good night sleep,
xoxo

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